IS HE GAY?

Is he gay? This question gnaws my thoughts every so now and then, as I try to discern the behavior of a good friend of mine who hold close to my heart, that it hurts me to think that he be one.

Not that I have something against the gifted “third kind”, not so…nah…in fact, two of my closest friends are gays and I love them so much that I’ll even walk the fire for them! It’s just that…I really want to see this friend of mine, married someday for I know he needs a complete family to feel that emptiness he now feels.

Honestly, for a certain period of time I wanted him for myself but then reality steps in and made me realize that there is this someone there for me, who truly deserves the love I can give, so I gave up on this friend of mine.

Not that I had my heart broken where wanting him for myself is concerned that’s why these doubts begin to cloud my already my confused head –- these thoughts lurk and would often beset me because these days he has that propensity to whine and play victim to even the most hackneyed situation! He pretends to be so darn vulnerable to people’s prying and piercing prejudgments. He would be like a babe in the woods crying for constant help from friends…making me see him as a whining girl ready to be swallowed alive by this big bad world. Gosh! Even Little Red Riding Hood tried her best to find her way home. But him? He takes comfort in his selfish whining and griping!

In our midst, we see him as one lonely guy who wants to be given a sense of direction and a strong sense of attachment to the opposite sex for he has that knack to basically let go of the wonderful girls he had luckily meet in his self-imposed life’s travails.

For years, I have been trying to decipher his real nuances and each time, I can incorrigibly come to a conclusion that he could probably be gay and that maybe he just doesn’t know how to address that hard fact yet.

Oh well, if you ask me, I will still love and take him for who he is. If really, he finds it in his heart to come out and admit that he is really gay, well, well, I would surely find this even more endearing of him for I know it takes a lot of courage to admit to the unforgiving world, that his “happy ending” might not be the same as what most people expect of him.